Friday, April 22, 2016

Cycle

Turn on PartyNextDoor's Come and See Me, let's ride the same waves haha

I grew up by the beach so moving to LA, specifically the San Fernando Valley, I miss the beach. Yes the beach is relatively close but not like home. I could see the beach from every single classroom at my high school, that's how close the beach was in Encinitas. I feel like I get to the beach and I'm a different person, so Zen-d out. It's for sure one of my favorite places and this time of year I go 4 or 5 times a week.
That's why whenever we shot this past week or so, I was immediately like let's go to the beach! So sorry for all the beach vibes, it's just what I've been up to this past couple weeks. 

I bought these jeans about a year ago from F21 but they're still selling them. They fit SO WELL. It's hard for me to find jeans that fit right off the rack and these work so well! No camel toe, long enough and the right amount stretch.

I rarely take time to just chill, like I don't even know what that feels like. What do you all do to relax? I need to take care of myself more ++








High Waist Flare Jeans: F21
Split White Top: Misguided via ASOS
God Save McQueen Denim Jacket: DIY, jacket from Old Navy
Denim Platforms: Nordstrom Rack
Glasses: F21
Earrings: H&M


photos courtesy of Danny Guerrero 

Thursday, April 14, 2016

Sometimes

Danny and I went to the beach to shoot, kind of spontaneously, and it was super fun and relaxing. I felt like I was in an early 2000's music video and was living for the fantasy! After this crazy weekend, which I'm still processing, I had to chill out for a little bit. I mean the Torrid party was an actual dream come true and then I met Nadia Aboulhosn (photos on Instagram), it was too much! I received quite a bit of hate comments on social media this week and I wanted to respond once. I'm not interested in clapping back or feeding into negativity but I wanted to share my story:

I have spent the majority of my life being plus size. I have spent the majority of my life being bigger, curvier, thicker, fatter than the average woman. I have spent the majority of my life being told to wear flattering clothes, to appear smaller, to take up less space, to become healthier, adhere to someone else’s idea of beautiful, and to do anything I can to become what society deems as an average woman. 
Growing up I worked really, really hard to love my size. I hit 6” tall at around 9th grade and a size 12 around the same time. Size 12 and up are all considered plus size, with the average women in America wearing a size 16. My journey to self love has been long, exhausting, and crazy beautiful, like many of my followers who have shared their journeys with me. 
I felt the need to respond to the large amount of hate comments I’ve received in the last few days, via social media. I understand this comes with the territory but I wanted to address this once and not again in the future, because I’m sure this won’t be the last time. I will not stop sharing my journey and I will not stop speaking my truth. I have worked very hard to be brave enough to expose myself in a way that can and does inspire others. So many plus size blogger have influenced me and the person I am today, more than I can express and I hope to give back a small percentage of what they gave me. I do this for the person who needs to see larger bodies represented. I do this for my friends who still struggle with body confidence and self esteem. I do this for the 13 year old girl inside me who needed to see someone like herself. These are the reasons I will remain confident, even more so, despite what any faceless, nameless, negative commenter can and will say ++






 

Baby Blue Sweater: Lane Bryant
Light Denim Shorts: Torrid
Rings: Torrid

photos courtesy of Danny Guerrero 

Friday, April 8, 2016

Chase

I never fail. Not that I never fail because I'm perfect, I just don't see anything as a failure. I see everything as a lesson or a readjustment. Any set back is a way for you to take a second, get yourself back together and try again. Always try again, always. Success isn't just for a select few. Dreams are not meant for 1%. Dream, plot and then hustle. When it gets hard, keep going. When no one gives a fuck, keep going. You can do this. This is what I have learned in the last year.
Sometimes you need to be broken down, broken up with or just plain rock bottom to come back even stronger. I never thought I would talk about this on The B Word but I thought because there was such a huge response to last weeks post, I would open up. My trust was betrayed by a best friend, someone I considered family, and let me tell you the situation was complicated (haha). When it first happened and for longer than I care to admit I blamed myself, questioned myself, why didn't I see that coming? Was I not smart enough? Good a friend-enough? Funny enough? Pretty enough?? I was chasing something that wasn't for me. Once I got over the fact that no it wasn't something I could have controlled, I readjusted and I came back at life, hard. I was not going to let something like that hurt me to the point where I couldn't come back. I don't think I would have hustled as hard as I did if it wasn't for that situation. So I can now thank that person and I can keep thriving. The further you get away from things the clearer they become. When you start feeling like you've been chasing something that seems unattainable or too far away, let it go. Start rethinking the situation and make adjustments. If door one doesn't open, door two is even better. Find the silver lining and keep it pushing because you are smart enough, you are a good friend, you are funny and you are pretty. Keep chasing that within yourself and never count yourself out ++

Now about this outfit haha! I'm obsessed with this bright yellow power suit from Lane Bryant. The color and cut are everything. I wanted to pull a full 1990's working woman look complete with chocker, strap heels and bra.








Yellow Short Suit: Lane Bryant
Black Lace Bra: Lane Bryant
Strap Heels: Steve Madden
"Pretty Clutch" Clutch: Torrid
Velvet Chocker: DIY 

photos courtesy of Danny Guerrero 



Friday, April 1, 2016

Loren

I don't know if it's my theatrical background, my love of old hollywood films, my grandma's influence, or something else but I love dressing with a retro flare. There is something so feminine and glamorous that comes from eras past. I feel like a real Italian girl in this City Chic Dress, my vespa and gelato are waiting. 
On Instagram I talked a little bit about body hang ups. If I had to say one part of my body that I'm insecure about, it would be my arms. Ever since I was younger I've been insecure about the size, broadness, and flabby skin that hangs off my arms. I remember this back to middle school. I would only wear sleeves or wear jackets. I was the queen of those short sleeve cardigans, I swear I had that style in every color, it was a desperate situation! How did I get over it? Well I hate when people say I just got over it. SO here are some steps to getting over body hang ups. 

1st) Realize you are so much more than just one body part. You have a mind with creative, valid thoughts. You are kind, you are smart, you are important type of thing. Look at yourself in the mirror, REALLY look, it can be hard I know and notice three things you like about your body. If you can find things you love, even better, focus on those three things. I love my legs, my waist and my butt so I dress to show those areas off. 

2nd) Notice whenever you have negative body talk. This is the root of all evil, to be honest. If you think "ugh I'm ugly" or "I can't do this", you will NEVER be able to out do that thinking. Noticing these negative thoughts is the first step in ending them. So just start noticing negative thoughts and actively chose to think about the three parts of your body you like or love. Change the thought process. I would never lie and say, that I'm 100% body positive all the time. There are days I wake up feeling bloated, ugly in my clothes and insecure. I notice these thoughts and choose to point my focus elsewhere. Bad days are few and far between.

3rd) Start doing little things outside of your comfort zone. For me I tried taking risks with fashion, little by little. I started wearing belts around my waist, wearing things differently. It felt good to take baby steps till I was comfortable enough to go sleeveless. Build up your confidence so you can overcome any body hang ups. Be fearless!

These are steps that really helped me and I hope they will mean something to you all. I love helping you feel comfortable and confident in your own skin now. We all deserve to love ourselves and to feel amazing ++







Black Strapless Dress: City Chic
Perfect Nude Heels: Steve Madden
Pastel Pink Bag: Forever 21
Black Puffball: Charlotte Russe
Blue Drop Earrings: Downtown LA

photos courtesy of Danny Guerrero